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Lenten Reflection from Susan Proctor: God is Alive

When I was a teenager, I left the Methodist church and joined LRY, Liberal Religious Youth, of the Unitarian Church in Birmingham. At one point, we decided to each bring a song that had affected our hearts in a very powerful way. Below is the song that I shared. Now, at sixty, I find that this song has stayed with me, grows in meaning and strength and comfort.

What we knew when young, is often our greatest truth. This is to me. I am very grateful to these artists. – Susan Proctor



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Lenten Reflection from Susan Proctor: Presence – Absence – Presence

“Did you mean to die like that, was that a mistake? Or did you know your messy death would be a record breaker?” ! ! ! ! !

– Judas in Jesus Christ, SuperStar


As Easter people, we are called to be in the presence of the Christ.

As present day humans, we did not personally know Jesus as a man. He was not a friend whose presence was felt and then his absence endured. We are asked to know his presence, now, within us.

When those we love so deeply, for so long, or perhaps briefly, change or influence our lives, perhaps even the course of our lives, dies, we have a presence/absence/presence relationship.

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Lenten Reflection from Susan Proctor: Everything but the Truth

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Snowed and iced in on “my” mountain left me with an opportunity, by necessity, to create a different routine.

My seven outside rescued cats were a bit, um, confused by their diet of grits. Although my friends and I had a chuckle from this; it soon became a deeper lesson. Because many in this world would be happy to have a bowl of grits.

I had yeast, flour, sugar, butter, cinnamon, raisins- oh those rolls were wonderful. I had heat. I had clean well water. I had electricity providing light and hot water on demand. I had cooking ability. What I did not have were my regular vices!
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Lenten Reflection from Susan Proctor: giving up expectations

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Recently a friend of mine dismissed me from his/her life, saying that, although I was generous and compassionate with others, I was not so with said person. That my pain and honesty was cruel.

So, I have had much reflection on this. Who wants to be measured by someone who is keeping score on what a gift may be?

But what I have thus far sifted from this passage is this: that with any disputes, missed communication, slights, neglect, even anger with friends–that what has salvaged and brought us closer, is that underneath it all was a core of love. Simply love. Sustaining love. It bears all. Continue reading Lenten Reflection from Susan Proctor: giving up expectations

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Lenten Reflection from Susan Proctor: “giving up Jesus”

There is a great cartoon that shows Evangelists at the door of a woman’s sparse room asking her if she had found Jesus. Looking closely, you see “Jesus” hiding behind her curtains.

Hiding. From those whom are asking her “if she had found…” Continue reading Lenten Reflection from Susan Proctor: “giving up Jesus”

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Lenten reflection from Susan Proctor

“Whatever gains I had, these I have come to regard as loss because of Christ. More than that, I regard everything as loss because of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the sharing of his sufferings by becoming like him in his death, if somehow I may attain the resurrection from the dead. Philippians 3.7-8;10-11

Kindness

by Naomi Shihab Nye

Before you know what kindness really is

you must lose things, feel the future dissolve in a moment

like salt in a weakened broth.

What you held in your hand,

what you counted and carefully saved,

all this must go so you know

how desolate the landscape can be

between the regions of kindness.

How you ride and ride

thinking the bus will never stop,

the passengers eating maize and chicken

will stare out the window forever.

 

Before you learn the tender gravity of kindness,

you must travel where the

Indian in a white poncho lies dead

by the side of the road.

You must see how this could be you, how he too was someone who journeyed through the night

with plans and the simple breath

that kept him alive.

 

Before you know kindness

as the deepest thing inside,

you must know sorrow

as the other deepest thing.

You must wake up with sorrow.

You must speak to it till your voice

catches the thread of all sorrows

and you see the size of the cloth.

Then it is only kindness

that makes sense anymore,

only kindness that ties your shoes

and sends you out into the day

to mail letters and purchase bread,

only kindness that raises its head

from the crowd of the world to say

it is I you have been looking for,

and then goes with you every where

like a shadow or a friend.

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Lenten reflection from Susan Proctor

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— Jelaluddin Rumi, translation by Coleman Barks

Copyright 1997 by Coleman Barks. All rights reserved.

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Lenten reflection from Susan Proctor

LetItBe_Final“Whisper words of wisdom~Let it Be”

Beatles Words from Jesus?

Or other prophets?

Blood on the land from so many who speak to us as we contemplate our own place.

Martyrs~~oh SO many that we can name, and those who are unknown.

Those who did not only gaze at their navels, but spoke Truth to Power.

Yet, first, did they not reflect?

Our leaders, inspirers, and yes, our own pastor is one of these.

Because Jesus was not wrong. He did not get lynched by not being radical to his time and place. He knew he would. He knew. Yet, he Let It Be.

Let us count the names ~ yes, too many, Thank God, so many!

Do we die on the cross along side? Dare we? Should we? Must we?

Good Friday. We anticipate the Resurrection. Because now we have the story, the history, the faith. But what if we were there then; confused, frightened, intimidated, betrayed?

Jesus answered him. “I tell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise.” Luke 23:43 NIV 

Jesus telling “the truth” just at death? No, telling the truth always. The scary, today, truth. Truth to power. (little “p”) We have the power.

We have been gifted the Power (big “P’).

This time, as we pray, the blood must stop, the hate must end, the gift has been given of LIFE.

Let It Be!

-susan proctor

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Lenten reflection from Susan Proctor

A while back, Harper, the dog, and I were messing about in the canyon. There had been much rain and the river was ragingly spectacular. Entranced, I thought, “Well, I don’t hike as well as I did at twenty, but doing pretty good for fifty-six.” So, as I approached the watershed that I had circumvented going forward, I decided that I could jump it on the way back. So, I leapt! 

As I lay there with the water gurgling around me, gazing upon the sky, feeling my skinned knee, I chuckled, “Well, this is another fine mess you’ve gotten yourself into.”

Just as a child; testing our limits, boundaries, abilities, so we do in other life stages. I’m finding, as well, so I do in my spiritual life. 

Do we leap again~or not? Are we wounded~or revealed? 

And what is up with all this wandering about in deserts? Are we lost, searching, adventuring? Are we afraid or filled with wonder? Do we hear a call or just want a map? 

Jesus answered, “It says: Do not put the Lord your God to the test.” Luke 4:12 

Faith pulls us up and calms us down. Faith inspires us and let’s us question. 

On and on we may question. Faith allows us. For, truly, we do not live by bread alone. 

And Hope ~always the hope, that we grow, learn from the boo-boo’s, joy and chaos. Whether we are healing from a shattered knee or a shattered heart. Faith in our healing, our limitations, our abilities. 

Divine Love. Wandering and wondering.                                                                       

– Susan Proctor

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Lenten reflection from Susan Proctor

From birth to tomb

another afternoon

of grace and spit upon the womb

of ones as us who try and fail

again to grasp
majestic solitude

to find girth within the filth

within the dance of circumstance

the wet of sweat and deep regret

yet salvation of the simple spate

truth unearthing history

of the holiness of us

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PS – Faced with two children of God who have sought to hurt and be cruel over time, I followed and answered the call of Our Creator, and returned unkindness with kindness today. What a blessing! How light I felt as Light flooded in. I pray the same for them. For all of us. I suppose that I have given up something, and that has returned overflowing filling. Great thanks be.

Pax,

Susan P

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