Several years ago I was face down on the floor. I had heard of people being brought to their knees by life…and I was prostrate. I lived a good life on the outside, had all of the “trappings” a middle class life could provide, a loving supportive  husband, 3 amazing children… yet, here I was crying with my nose to the floor boards, calling out to God, “what is wrong with me????”

What I heard when I finally stopped crying out and drowning out what the Holy Spirit was trying to say, was “Be still and know that I am God”, “be still and know”, “be still”, “be”. At that moment I just stopped hollering at God and just “was”.

I wish I could say all my problems within my heart, mind and soul, just disappeared, but I can’t. Life got harder and changes developed…..but within it all, I didn’t find myself prostrate on the floor again. When I felt the horrible anxieties bubbling up inside me, I made myself sit still…” Be still and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10), and He is ultimately in control.  THAT I can live with and count on.

-Emily Hill Barrett